Grabbing depression by the balls

If you saw my tweets yesterday then you will know I was having a pretty grim day. I felt the separation wasn’t working with S; I got up to a sink full of dishes, a wet wash lying on the floor and a load of the previous nights fajita sauce on the floor after I spent the previous evening with a crying baby and S spent the night watching TV. I called the tax office regarding our tax credits and why they’d missed a payment; it turned out they have stopped our weekly money as we earned too much last year (how, I’ve no idea. If you read a previous post you’ll see just how tight things have been for us). Just as we were getting ourselves sorted it went t*ts up. I spent the day in a horrible mood, couldn’t pick myself up, shed quite a few tears. I went to a friends hen do in the evening to cheer myself up but that was in the bingo, something that doesn’t interest me too much, and I was so tired I could’ve happily curled up in bed.

When I woke up this morning I expected myself to be in another foul mood. But when I got up I actually felt quite good. I suggested that me and S took J to the park for an hour to get us out of the house. The sun was shining so I wanted to get there early before it was too crowded. Also it meant I had to get dressed, something I find difficult to do at the moment with depression (simple things like getting showered or feeding myself have become the biggest chores in the world lately).

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I had a cup of tea, did my nails and got ready. We went out at 10am and walked over the road to the local park. We took J on the swings, something he loves! Then we walked over to a nice freshly cut patch of grass and plonked ourselves down. J had a crawl around, me and S lay there and chatted. It was nice to spend time together. Then I wrote a blog post and S took J for a stroll to have a look at the ducks. Considering we only popped over to get us out we spent almost three hours there!

When we got home I made us a nice lunch and got J in his playpen all stripped off (in the shade of course). I stripped off into a bikini and shorts and chilled for a while. We decided to get the pool out so me and J had a splash in there, he was chuffed, as was I! So all in all it was a lovely day.

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The point of this blog is to prove that you don’t need money to enjoy yourself. To prove that getting yourself dressed in the morning despite how difficult it being is always the best thing to do. Get yourself out there, grab your depression by the balls and don’t indulge it!

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