This week we have seen some awful pictures in the media… a child not much older than you has brought the nation, the world even, into tears in a way I wouldn’t want to share with you, I don’t want you exposed to the same pain I have felt. I have never held you so tight in my life after seeing it.
I tell you all the time how much I love you, but that love has just exploded over the last few days. My heart has felt ready to burst: pain from what I’ve seen and love for you. I never want to lose you, please don’t leave me my son.
I have seen friends lose their children and selfishly I don’t want that to be me. The people I have seen go through this pain are much stronger than me, you are my utter weakness and I simply can’t be without you. I don’t even have another child to carry on for, without out I am nothing.
I am sorry I brought you into a world where such pain exists. I will do all I can to prevent you having to endure pain like this, but sometimes it’s out of my control. I will do my best for you, I promise, but if it happens I’m sorry. I just hope you get to see the beauty that exists in the world too…
While people can cause you pain, remember they can also be amazing! I have come across so many beautiful people in my life that have left such a positive impact. People can be kind and generous, forgiving and loving. Find these people and keep them in your life. You are already lucky enough to have so many people who adore you, but you will meet so many more.
Go through life being kind to those who are kind to you. I can already see you’re a caring character, don’t let the cruel people of the world take that away from you; there will be many who can see and love the real you and they are the people who matter. Have the confidence to be you, you are beautiful. Allow yourself to feel pain, it shows compassion. And when you do feel pain let me help you through it, we can tackle this life together…
You will see such pictures as I have seen in your life, but remember we are lucky enough to have a roof over our heads, safety from war, food in our stomachs and love that will mean we’re never alone. We’ll smash it between us kid, me and you make a good team, let’s do this!!
Love Mummy x