While I’ve done really well with overcoming many of my fears and phobias, there’s one I’ve not been able to overcome. It’s a ridiculous phobia which is really annoying considering I’ve overcome some real fears that have been completely rational. The big one I’m yet to overcome is completely ridiculous and unnecessary with no rationality about it whatsoever. What is it? Jelly… I have ‘jangelaphobia’.
Yep, I am petrified of jelly. I’ve no idea where the phobia came from, when I developed it, at the age of 27 it still doesn’t make sense to me, yet I cannot get over it at all! I’m ok with pictures or the mention of it (now that would just be silly wouldn’t it?!), it’s just when I see it on TV or God forbid, in real life. My anxiety goes through the roof!
I went for dinner a few weeks ago with my fella and his parents. I’d met them both on various occasions but this was the first time they’d invited me out as Neil’s missus, so obviously I’m still wanting to make a good impression. It was going really well until his dad got a jelly-like dessert. I panicked!! I was trying to hide my anxiety but Neil could tell I was freaking out. He couldn’t work out why and then he noticed his dad’s dessert wobbling away, thankfully he covered for me and explained as I made a dash for the loo! His parents were so lovely about it but I was still mortified.
I love that it has a name, ‘jangelaphobia’ sounds so much more exotic than it actually is! It’s not a common phobia, one that is laughed at when I tell people, but it really does get me panicking. My anxiety flares up, my breathing gets heavy and I become extremely fidgety. I don’t just ‘not like’ the stuff, it really does have an effect on me.
It’s a fear I have to overcome, how can I raise a child if I’m scared of jelly?! What am I going to do at children’s birthday parties? What am I going to do if HE ever wants jelly?? While it is a genuine fear I know it’s completely ridiculous. It’s vile stuff, how anyone can have that stuff in their mouth I don’t know! If I do overcome it you will still never find me eating it!!
Do you have any irrational fears? What’s the most ridiculous fear you’ve heard of?