So I’ve been out of the blogging scene for a while now and lots has happened in that time, some good, some bad. I’ve been on and off social media too so unless you’re one of the people I’ve been calling crying to or laughing to you, you’ve probably not known much. I’ll try to fill you in as much as I can without rabbiting on too much…
Firstly I did have my usual Christmas breakdown. I was holding it together so well despite a lot of dramas unravelling; financial difficulties, losing my boyfriend repeatedly to the Christmas booze, family bickering, anxiety and low self-esteem for Christmas. But one day it all fell apart and so did I. I argued with everyone around me and cut myself off to hide in my shell. But I’m through it now so yay!
J is doing ace, he’s loving being back in nursery, chatting away to everyone, loving his books. He is still completely obsessed with trains, enjoys anything train related, whether it’s books, toys, jigsaw. Spending my evenings cuddled up with him has got me through everything.
I passed the next level of my Teaching Assistant diploma, I got distinction in my level 2 and now my level 3 also, yay! I’m hoping that this will help me get back into an SEN (special educational needs) school in September, something I used to do and loved!! I’m just trying to find some money to be able to do an SEN diploma, but that probably won’t be for a while.
I obviously have my blog back, that was a right palava! I was ready to never blog again, I was in such a shitty place with it for one reason or another, so I left it. Then I got drunk one night and decided to play about with it, and in the process managed to lost it all. I searched the internet for days trying to find it, but I couldn’t get access anywhere! I got back in touch with my host who thankfully had it backed up, so here it is, I have it all back!!! I felt so lost without it, my social life was gone, I didn’t have any fun parcels in the post, I had nowhere to rant… I hated it. It’s safe to say I’ve got my blogging mojo back again.
I had a sneaky birthday while the blog was down, but I wouldn’t have made a big deal about it anyway. I went out for the first time in years for it, we went to Neil’s local and then went back to his parents house before all the new year shenanigans (my birthday is NYE) kicked off. It was really nice to be honest, I’ve always just gone to bed at 10.30 to dodge it all. I’m 28 now so my thirties are on the horizon!
There was a bereavement in the family which was difficult to take, unfortunately lost to cancer. But I got to say a lovely goodbye which made it easier to accept. But I’ve had some awesome days out with Josh, Neil and the family which has been nice. And a few exciting things planned for me to look forward to, all of which I’m sure I’ll blog about now I can!